Life changes...all the time!

Reflecting tonight on life... It is amazing how much can change in a week. Katherine was gone to camp for 6 days and just returned home tonight. She has been apart of our lives for 11 years (9 months of that in my belly) and there is a huge hole in our family when she is gone. We are so thankful to have her in our lives. She adds sugar and spice...everything outgoing and social, somewhat dramatic and sassy. Life just isn't the same without her at home.

While she was gone to camp, Todd and I came to the decision that it is time to put our sweet 14 year old Chow Chow down. Katherine has never known life without him. We wanted to give her some time to spend with him this weekend and then it will be time. Katherine dreams of being a vet, knows all about what being a vet is about and that includes what is going to happen with Kody. It is much easier to see it on T.V or read it in a book than to have it happen to your beloved pet. She cried for HOURS tonight after we talked to her. It about broke my heart into pieces! Sometimes decisions are right, even when they are hard and this is a perfect example. We have known for awhile that this time was quickly approaching but it is difficult nonetheless.

I could end this blog right here... but I still have more to say tonight.


I have been having some "female" issues... nothing too serious but I am SUPER done with spending half of the month dealing with being a woman, if you know what I mean!! I called my ob/gyn this week and talked to the nurse about my issues. Dr. Daily ordered a pelvic ultrasound. My ultrasound was this morning and I don't have my results yet...not until next week. They are looking for cysts, tumors and/or cancer. All of which would most likely mean surgery. There aren't too many things that cause me anxiety. I usually take life as it comes without a lot of worry. While I am not really worried about the outcome (God is in control), the idea of surgery with 4-6 weeks of recovery is not so appealing to me. (Be careful what you wish for!) While thinking about the outcome and how it could affect my life and that of my family, something else happened. Several of my friends offered their immediate help... to come with me, to pray, to do anything I needed. Wow! I have long been known to everyone in my life as THE strong one, the one never needs help and rarely support (certainly NEVER emotional support). I am the one who others lean on. In my family, I am the rock. With my friends, I am the rational realist with a good head on my shoulders. You know what? I have never let people be there for me, even when they tried. I have repeatedly pushed them away and said "I'm fine". This week, I shared my anxiety with some friends to let them help carry my burden. I felt like a huge weight was lifted by just sharing how I felt. I always do these kind of things "alone"... I always have. I don't need people fussing over me or going out of their way to "be there" for me. My family isn't a real "I will go with you" kind of group. Well... 3 of my friends offered to go with me to the ultrasound. Really? Kelly offered first so that is who went... People dropping everything for me is new. WOW! I am just so blessed to have friends who care enough to do that for me. I am uncertain of what the future holds but one thing is sure, my friends will be there regardless. Worried? Anxious? Nope...I really am not because God has this whole life planned out for me and I pray to walk in His will. It is my prayer that YOU have friends that are there for you in all situations and never hesitate to walk the rocky terrain with you. I am so thankful for the people in my life that love me despite my imperfections and pray continually for me.